When I was fourteen, I began questioning my quirky, jumpy, happy self. All the other kids were so calm and cool. So different from me. A boy in my class made everyone laugh by commenting what a “perfect little girl” I was, enjoying dance, singing and art. He made it sound like an insult. At sixteen I wanted to wear my pink Converse, but put on high heels instead. I wanted to put on a skirt with butterflies, but went for black jeans. I wanted to talk out, participate in class, say my opinion. I stayed quiet.
At 18, I thought the hiding was over. I was so proud to finally have grown up and become my “real self”. An adult version of me, a very rational, classy one. I felt way more confident… but not myself at all yet.
Filming this video today, I realised how far I have gotten. I am not ashamed of being silly anymore. I don’t cringe when confessing my true love for Harry Potter (or deny it, even!). I don’t read or draw in hiding, but tell the world about it. I don’t try to look all mature, calm and serious. I am my crazy, quirky jumpy self. I don’t mind about what others say. I mind about my own opinion. And all that matters is that I am happy.
P.S.: Today’s day 8 #BLOGMAS giveaway is in the video! Comment here or on YouTube!
Every day until 24.12. a giveaway will be posted on one of my channels (usually my blog, but also Facebook, Instagram, Snapchat or YouTube). You can enter by commenting on the post. The winner will always be chosen on the next day, at 22:00, and will be mentioned in the same post. You need to check it again to find out who won / on Instagram the winner will get a notification when he is tagged.
The winners are chosen! The German version goes to Kim H. and the Finnish version to Reija! Please email me your addresses at firstname.lastname@example.org // Unfortunately Reija never came back to me, so the book goes to the next winner, Miffa!